…so why is it so hard to narrow down my options? At least I have options? I should be grateful. I don’t know everything I want, but I do know what I don’t want.
I don’t want to suffocate. I don’t want to trap myself in a permanent position where I will forever be obligated to stay. I do not want to work in a job solely for the money. I don’t want to struggle. I don’t want to limit myself. I don’t want to make mistakes that will hinder the potential for more opportunity. I absolutely do not want to be lonely or depressed. I don’t want to retreat into myself.
I guess if all of that were flipped it would be what I want. I want freedom and happiness. I want to grow upward from positive experiences. I want to be outside. I want to work with my hands, my brain, and my heart. I want to take time if I need it. I want to invest in as many people as possible and carry their stories with me. I want to be there when my best friends get married, and I want them to be there for me when “I do.” I want to be whole, yet I want to leave a piece of myself with as many of those who will take me.
Can’t have it all. Time to run.