The fear of commitment disappeared and for a moment, I longed for a static connection. I was excited about the thought of engagement and long-term relationships. I’m finally falling out of that and transitioning into something more solitary. The adjustment period of graduating from college and moving across the country, away from my friends and family, has been grueling. It has given me the opportunity to motivate myself to do what I want to do, rather than to fall into dreaded routines. Fruit fasting, tea drinking, grad school searching, and yoga all remind me of who I was five years ago. I’m happy I’m in that free-spirited place again. I am the person I have always wanted to be. Jun 28 Tricked into a short-lived episode of lust and romanticism.